Introduction

I have come to realize that I need to find a grief support group.  Grief is such a complex thing, and one can only burden one's friends for so long.  The only problem is, I have two children and haven't even found the time to call about a support group, let alone attend one.  I decided to start this blog to have a forum for expressing my feelings and perhaps connect with others in the same situation.  Here goes nothing!

To share a little bit about myself, I am 36, am married, and have two children, ages 4 1/2 and 18 months.  My mother died 7 1/2 months ago after an unforeseen complication of a surgery she'd been recovering from for 3 weeks.  I was there with her when she died, but not when she went into the coma.  Every day since then has been a roller coaster of grief, anger, acceptance, questioning, and more.  It has been a struggle emotionally and sometimes even physically.  Affecting my feelings are the emotions of my son, who remembers his Omi Helga well and loved her dearly.

Why is this blog called Losing Omi?  My mom moved to the States from Germany when she married my dad, and "Grandma" in German is "Oma".  However, my mom did not want to be called "Oma" because in her mind, Oma was her mother.  After much deliberation we decided on "Omi Helga".  This calendar year has been defined by our coping with the loss of her, hence, Losing Omi.